I honestly have no idea how to express my feelings to people because I feel like i’ll make them feel like shit too, and I don’t want that. Yet, i’m so tired and I hate having to hold things in. I don’t want to cry them out anymore, I just want them to go away. Stupid feelings.
I don’t feel like doing anything. I want to hide under my bed and never come out. Make believe I just don’t exist at all.
My sister calls me gay a lot and today she asked me what it even meant, I was all “Well, gay is like, eh… let’s say I dated another girl, and that your brother liked another boy. I think that’s as easy as I can explain it” and she asked me if it was called gay if I married my dog, since my dog is female, I was like “No, people don’t really marry animals. And same sex couples can’t marry either.” and she said ‘You’re gay’ again and left.
Today’s one of those days in which I don’t feel like talking. I’d rather curl up in bed with someone and just stay there in silence.
To be honest, not all guys are assholes. I’m pretty sure if girls would stop being fucking bitches maybe the guys that aren’t jerks would actually talk to them without feeling like they’ll get rejected. But that’s the way it works, and even if the sweetest human being was in front of you, you’d still be too blind to notice because you’re stuck thinking about the asshole that doesn’t want you back.
I feel like tea and having someone tell me a bed time story.
Oh, fuck. What am I doing with my life?
I wish things were like they used to be several months ago. I actually felt utterly content with how my life was looking, and it made sense even if it was for a bit. I don’t even know what i’m doing with myself now days. Nothing makes much sense anymore.
How can people be in a new relationship every week?
How can they like a new person every month?
It takes me like a bizillion years to get over one person and then another year to decide i’m ready to try it again.
I think something must be wrong with my body because I spend most of my time sleeping instead of having a social life.
“Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of its trouble, attempts what is above its strength, pleads no excuse for impossibility, for it thinks all things are lawful for itself and all things are possible.” - Thomas A. Kempis
Today was not my day, and tonight is certainly not my night.
When I have feelings for someone, even if we’re not in a relationship, I can’t “talk” to other people. It’s like as soon as I realize how strong my feelings are for that person, I can’t look at anyone else the same. Sometimes it leads to me isolating myself and not talking to people because I don’t want them to get the wrong idea, since i’m already focused enough on someone else I want. It just…feels wrong, to share any part of me with anyone else if there’s someone that has emotionally captured me.
